What I'm NOT putting on my list

Weight loss. Yes, it would be wonderful to loose some weight, but I'm honestly happy as I am. It just so happens that I am loosing some weight, but I'm not aspiring to, it's just happening. This may come off as really .... I don't know, wrong? But the world is cruel. I've been made fun of since as early as I can remember. When I was in elementary school, I was treated cruelly by the popular kids - for no apparent reason. I was smart, skinny, athletic - I don't know. Then in middle school, I moved to Chicago and was made fun of for my country accent, but for once, I was semi-popular. Then in High School... well, it's just like you would imagine. I was made fun of a lot but especially once I returned to KY. Anyway, I don't mean to steer off topic, but sometimes, I'm actually glad I'm my size. It takes some social pressure off. When people talk to me, I know they are genuinely interested in what I have to say.

Would it be nice to be a size 6? Oh yeah, I'd be lying if I said I didn't dream about it. But I am happy the way I am and your size 0's aren't going to make me feel bad about it.

It so happens that my new xbox kinect is kicking my butt, and I've been eating a lot healthier just because sweet food has been making me feel sick a lot lately. Also, since I've been laid off work in August, I'm moving a lot more and I'm cooking at home probably 4x as much as I used to. So yes, I am loosing weight. But I'm not making it a goal of mine.

Why? Because that's too much pressure. I've learned the hard way that no one can be good at EVERYTHING. Starting tomorrow, I'm taking on my last semester of college, I'm starting a very intense internship, I'm cracking down on the wedding planning for June, the possibility of a new job in April or late June (depending on unemployment extensions), and starting my new life as a graduate and a wife. I want to focus on those things. Any more and I'm bound to give up on something I really care about.

Bottom line, I'm happy. I have a wonderful fiance who loves me, a beautiful canine who loves me, wonderful friends who love me, and a beautiful family who all care about me. I'm graduating in May, I'm getting married in June - new house, new car, new life. I don't need anyone's acceptance and I don't care for it.

I swore to myself that 2011 would be my year to shine. And so far it has been.